Still Empty

I'm feeling hollow inside

So empty yet so crowded

with my feelings for you...

I want to stop dying from your thorns..

I want to stand while holding your fragment..

I'm sick of this empty room..

Since you left nothing behind,

Go On

Everything will change eventually..

Wheter er like it or not

Nothing is eternal

Except the change itself

Don't Know

I saw everyone arround me
I watched them live intently, for so long.. Just watching them live
just as I decided to sit and feel mine
Iron bars surround me....

YOU

(AAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!)

So much anger in me
Pounding my heart impatiently
You're so lucky that I'm not a vampire
Cause if I am, you would have been ripped in pieces (NOW!!!)

Fake Heart

(I WANT TO CRY)
But there's no tear left
(I WANT TO BLEED)
But pain doesn't come anymore...

Confusion

I can't believe..
I can't accept..
How you left me...
So easy...

Your Thorns

I set my eyes to future
To my life, to my dream
But images of you keep swimming in my head...

Love and Pain

Thousands words I write
Hundreds Papers I take
Yet I still feel unsatisfied
The pain still there...
The Love is still there...

You Say Nothing

You say nothing to me
How could I know
Everything arround you?

Erased Memories

I hold memories dearly
More than anything
No matter how hurtful it is
I embrace them tightly

Contractdiction

So I see you walk away
From my life
And I'm just standing here
Watching you...

Tears, Smile, Emptiness

I lay on my bed
Caressing the space beside me
Where you usually slept on

Space Beside Me

Your smile shines so gently and so warm
Your hands intertwined in mine
You.. Beside.. Me

Falling Apart

The wind blows gently
I wish it could bring my heart
Fly through tress
Feeling the clouds... But all I see is black

You Left

You left me without words

I know we can't be together

But knowing you walked away like that

My heart got stabbed deep

Something in My Heart

A small fragment of yours passed my heart

It had left but something stayed there

Something warm

From you

Every breath I take

Every tears I shed

All painted in pain

Pain from you

Understand me

I love you, dear
But pain keep stabbing me
By your words, by your thoughts,
By yout love...

Break Me

Pain!
Go deeper in me
Devour me fully
As the Darkness pulls me deeper

I need to take it

Listen to me, my dear
Look carefully
Cause this is your last moment

Pain

He comes everyday
Black Coats always on him
He always come with a soft smile
and Coldness in his hands

A Love Story

This is a story of a girl
A girl who loved a young man dearly
That she let a witch turned her into a swan
In return for the young man's life

Strange

Pain grips my heart everytime I breath

Familiar coldness crawls under my skin

Strange...

It's painful yet calming....

Why

Nothing I feel but pain and anger

Why they make me feel them?

It's burning me painfully...

They choked me by their chains

Pressing me tightly

But why...

No hate within me?

Couldn't you...

From everywhere...

Chains from right, chains from left..

Chains from up, Thorns from below...

Losing you...

Soft grass tickling my back

As the blue sky spreaded upon me.

your angelic voice dances in my ears

as your strong eyes stares back to me...

Falling In Love with The Murderer

Langit malam cerah diterangi oleh bulan penuh, tampak di tengah tanah lapang yang dikelilingi ilalang tinggi dan pepohonan yang rindang terdapat sebuah tenda. Didepan tenda terdapat sebuah api unggun yang dikelilingi lima orang yang semuanya adalah laki-laki. Tawa mereka memenuhi tanah lapang itu, membuat sunyi enggan mendekat. Kelima orang tersebut menggunakan jaket karena malam itu lumayan dingin, mereka sedang memanggang jagung pada api unggun dan salah satu dari mereka sedang menyiapkan bumbu. Sembari menunggu, mereka bercanda gurau di selingi tawa keras dan suara-suara konyol. Mereka tampak menikmati malam itu dengan penuh tawa.

Kuburan

Kan ku gali lubang yang besar,
Tuk mengubur KAU dan kebohonganmu,
Semua... Semua tentang mu....
Kan ku tertawakan kau diatas kuburanmu,
Tak ada belas kasih katamu,
Dan memang tak ada belas kasih di bumi ini.....

Alone

Loneliness once again wraps me,
As I chained by the coldness,
Sharp words biting my skin,
While wild claws ripping my flesh...

Mirror & Betrayal

They say mirror never lies,
Then why are we seeing different things?

No where & No one

Run.....
I keep running from everything...
But I never can run from them...
Everything revolve around me...
Surrounding me...
Suffocate me...

Release me

That soft voice of yours
Was an Angel who keep me live
But now all I see
A hungry monster who ready to devour me

The World

Thru this cage I see

The world in every form

Thru this cage I smell

The blood of Innocents

Thru this cage I hear

The cry and scream from the children

What Can I do?

Cold….

Pain…

Those had always in my heart…

Stabbing me all over and over again…

But why,,,

It never go..

The last cry

Cold… pain… A razor in my right hand and several red lines is seen in my left wrist. “More…” I said as I slit my wrist again, creating new red lines between the older ones. I frown in annoyed. I feel pain from those red lines but the red liquid, I had been waiting for since 30 minutes ago, haven’t showing up. “Idiot razor!” I yell as I throw the razor across the room. My breath is uncontrollably as I sob between my tears. I grab another razor beside me and slit my wrist again. Red line appears again. I was going to throw my razor when I feel more pain at that red line and the red goes redder as it flows. “Finally!” I smile at the red line and slit deeper to my wrist. 1… 2… 3… 4… Red thick liquid flows from the four lines I made cause me to feel pain. I watch it flow as I fall into pain and pleasure. Tears are still falling as I smile, enjoying the pain from the lines.

Here I am

Here I am, looking at you from afar..
Watching you doing all you like while holding my knees...
Letting you do it, even if it tears my heart...
It throbs in pain.. it hurts...
But still...
Here I am...
Holding my knees and watching you....